Or so it seems to me.. well junior year has indeed officially started and I have not done anything to make it any better for myself. What can I say, fanfiction is just so much more rewarding to the soul, much to my mother’s chagrin. Yes, so with a fat orange cat sitting on my keyboard and lots of coffee in my future, I write. Tomorrow will probably be yet another day of sitting in tediously long classes trying to stay awake with a great help from my caffeine friend. I know I’m supposed to be doing a project, or homework or whatever, but right now I really just want to relax. I barely get the chance to do that anymore, and as a natural born slacker, I need that time to just veg on the couch. So, weekends will be like this, unless my teachers assign mindblowing amounts of extra work. In which case, I will mentally curse them for all eternity and live in agony underneath a large rock. Okay, not really.

I’m rather bored right now, to tell the truth. All of this ranting and stress just for college apps, huh? Lame, I think..so very lame. But I don’t get a goddamn choice in the matter, now do I? ..But that rant is for another day.

I don’t care much for relationships, it seems. It’s kinda sad, too. I don’t know why, but I just don’t seem to want to put any effort in it. That’s rather pathetic, and most of the time that doesn’t really bother me. When I actually think about it, then I get somewhat depressed. Maybe if I had made a real effort here..maybe if I had continued to talk to him/her then.. so many whatifs. I don’t think it’s very useful to try to change how I am, but maybe I could..er..alter it? I don’t know really. I’m no good with people, for the most part. They’re too confusing, different ..foreign; I can’t trust them.

Well, I think I’ll leave this post as it is now. To penguins and beyond,

Penguinpuff <3  

Mm..I do so love the smell of fresh BL fanfiction in the morning..afternoon..night, whatever. It doesn’t matter to me! Today was a rather uneventful day that was really just me lazing around and pretending to do my homework. Which I did..somewhat. But not really. Oh well, I’ll do it tomorrow. Dear god, hooray for Labor Day and the day of hell..I mean school it saves me from! I could kiss it with joy except it isn’t really living or existing..it’s just a day. Alas, it serves me well..for now I can ponder and think and do homework like a good little asian girl. Oh yes, because I am the picture perfect epitome of perfection and all things studious. ..Yeah. right. Seriously, who the hell thinks that??! We’re still humans even if we are perfect grade getting machines. ..Wow, what a strange sentence. But it gets what I want across, yes? We’re not just robots, we actually I dunno..THINK about things. It’s amazing, isn’t it? And contrary to popular belief, I do indeed talk in class. Just not to the people who think it’s all great and easy for them to simply copy off my tests/homework because they think "oh it’s the smart kid, not like it matters." Bull shit. Pure and simple.

 Yes, I have finally stopped my obsessive rant. So sorry, I do that quite often. Well I should be off for tonight since for some reason the internet is being a total bitch and won’t let me go on fanfiction.net. ..which really makes me quite sad. Because it is that, coffee, and mind numbing stress that keeps me functioning. So ..cheers!